Tag: essays

All the articles with the tag "essays".

• This is the hard part.

  15 Oct, 2023

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  A week after my stress fracture diagnosis, I crutched around Leadville 100, putting on a brave face (ok, failing but trying). Many wonderful people came up to me and said something along the lines of…

• So this is 40

  27 Sep, 2023

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  My dad's 40th birthday is emblazoned into my brain: the black decorations, the cake napkins that read "over the hill," the tombstone cake topper, the constant jokes that he was officially old. To an…

• Please believe me

  17 Sep, 2023

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  An hour after I arrived at the residential treatment facility in Carlsbad, I asked a staff member where the restroom was. “I have to go with you,” she said. As I started to enter the daisy yellow…

• Navigating Eating Disorder Recovery During a Global Pandemic

  26 Mar, 2020

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  As I chatted with a friend on FaceTime the other week, I made the joke: “I dunno…maybe the silver lining of this pandemic is it will cure me of my e

• The State of Things: Fear, Anxiety, and Balancing Mental and Physical Health

  13 Mar, 2020

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  When I was 6 years old, if I couldn’t get to sleep by 7:30pm, I would start crying hysterically. I was convinced I was going to die if I couldn’t fa

• 2019: A Year of Rebirth

  31 Dec, 2019

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  On paper, 2019 probably looks like a rough year for me. Fractured calcaneus two weeks before the Barkley Marathons (making that four stress fracture

• Big’s Backyard Ultra: Just What I Needed

  28 Oct, 2019

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  Running Big’s Backyard Ultra was a gamble for me: it’s not exactly an easy race to return to as my first ultra in over a year since injury, undergoi

• Let’s Talk About Our Feelings

  9 Oct, 2019

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  I was a colicky baby. A temperamental child. I was prone to tantrums, and expressed myself violently through a wide range of emotions. I felt, and I

• Our Bodies, Our Responsibility, and the Media

  12 Aug, 2019

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  (Content warning: This post contains my thoughts and feelings around my body and pictures of me. There are no numbers, behaviors, or weights.) In ea

• The Recovery I Needed

  8 Jul, 2019

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  In March, after sustaining my fourth stress fracture in the past three years, I wrote that it was time to take a step back and re-evaluate – to stop

• Don’t Fight the Water

  18 Mar, 2019

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  When I first started swimming, I couldn’t understand why it was so hard. I knew there were probably a million reasons for it (my last swimming lesso

• 2018: The Year of Letting Go

  31 Dec, 2018

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  Several months ago, I had a long conversation with one of my best friends from law school. “Amelia,” she said, “You are really good at holding on to

• A Year of Return to Running Logs

  31 Jan, 2018

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  Several months ago, I promised that I would share my return to running logs for those interested, not thinking that anyone would actually want to se

• The Injury Commandments

  17 Aug, 2017

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  While it’s not something I’m exactly proud of, if there’s one thing I’ve become well-versed in this past year and a half, it’s been dealing with inj

• Race Happy

  20 Jun, 2017

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  I feared my return to racing, and I faced that fear. I feared not being the athlete that I once was, and I’ve wrestled with my struggle to live up t

• Recovery: On realizing you aren’t superhuman

  2 Jun, 2016

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  It’s been 6 weeks since that fateful run where lightning bolts shot down my leg. When the initial MRI was taken, and my sentence was given (12 weeks

• When it all comes crashing down

  27 Apr, 2016

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  There are times in life when you feel like everything is FINALLY coming together, like life is finally making sense. And you are happy. Really, trul

• Sean O’Brien 100k and the Golden Ticket

  9 Feb, 2016

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  In November, I made a really bonehead move. After securing a Western States lottery ball with my Georgia Death Race (and first ultra) finish last sp

• Reflections: 2015 in Review

  31 Dec, 2015

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  Is this the real life? I found myself asking that question several times throughout 2015. Ok, maybe on an (almost) daily basis. (And then it’d be fo

• World’s Toughest Mudder 2015: Revolution

  23 Nov, 2015

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  For the fifth year, we came. We ran. We crawled. We swam. We jumped. We climbed. We laughed. We cried. We triumphed. Over these past five WTM’s, the